griscilla pan

there goes 2005
and here comes 2006
hello and
goodbye

i guess i learnt something
i realised that we are all so naive
we haven't gone through anything big, we haven't gone through what life is.
our troubles aren't that much trouble anymore.
not everyone has life as simple and easy as we do.
and that we haveto fight to for our own happiness,
making an effort to make a change in your life.
and i learnt to be thankful for my family and those around me.

today's training.
so sad.
only the full-attendance-since-the-beginning-of-time-shi-tien
and her reluctant-but-loyal partner :)
and the pro joan.
we saw a giant lizard
good night.

tonight was my family christmas eve bbq gathering. haha so long. but anyway yep we had a gathering but in the end it ended up a neighbours plus family gathering. so we bbqed and stuffed ourselves silly with food. then we had this carolling session with my v pretty cousin! she was leading and playing the guitar and then i suddenly thought, that she was still so strong and happy and her faith in God has not wavered even though she has leukemia and has gone through all the medicine and treatment and all that horrible stuff you go through when you're sick. she still manages to affect people around her in her own special way, her gentle persistence in getting everyone to join the singing session and her initiative to get us to sing, her confidence in leading and playing the guitar even though she's only been taking lessons for a month. and then i was sitting there watching at her and i thought, she's so strong. i feel..belittled and suddenly all the things and problems i worry about are so minor and i'm so weak and dependent in comparison to her. there are people around me who are going through troubles in their life probably 10 times worse than my trivial teenage angsty problems and they still remain strong and going and moving forward in life. i'm..inspired. kinda.

anyway it was a wonderful gathering and kudos to my mom who organised it and also my cousin who made everything and everyone so involved and jolly. even though i aint spending my christmas at rome or shanghai or anywhere else exotic in the world, this year's christmas eve has been fun and sortof inspiring and i don't feel any loss spending a great xmas here in spore with the great people around me. :)

i feel loved.
merry christmas folks!
spread the loveeee.
:D

wormy is in whistler/vancouver
shi-tien is in rome
june is in shanghai
i'm in singapore.

=(

and shi-tien, haha i know i rock. thanks!:)

since i don't have to wake up at unearthly hours tmr to face training or kids who cut my hair, i shall tell you about my day today and upload some random pictures i've taken over.. a period of time.
i went out with the lovely carrot and june today to watch perhaps love! it's a wonderful production and the effects/singing/pictures are weeeewwoooo nice! but.. the plot is kinda confusing..it's a movie in a movie! i still don't quite get it even right to the end but i like the movie anyways! takeshi kaneshiro is so oooooooohhhlala and june is gaga over yet another jap guy. zhou xun is so small and petite and chio and i think she has a very lovable face.
ok thennnn we changed our plans to go to pariss buffet cos the food there wasn't very appealing as compared to the ones i saw at tampines mall which were really o_o! but yea we went for sakae buffet and stuffed ourselves silly. hahaha and it was fun sitting on square tatami mats (besides the dojo) and thanks to caroline we get to eat more 1.90 stuff that i bet alot of people didn't know were part of the buffet menu. NYAHAH we've got carrot :D

yayyy i <3 buffets! anyone who needs a buffet kaki call me :)
ooh and i just found a superrr hot photo of takeshi kaneshiro

im addicted to the song cinderella by tata young

i haven't done my tuition hwk :( 27 pages inall its glory.

HERE

yay! at long last, edison show on sundayyy!!

im stressed.
some stupid boy cut my hair with a scissors today.
i pissed my teacher/boss off
i think i pissed my teacher/boss off again.
im pissed at my tecaher but i can't show it.
i hate the long 6 hour teaching sessions everyday
and getting peanuts in return.
im stressed.
and i felt like crying so much just now.
and i haven't cried for a long time.
not even when i failed the math test i worked for
or during nats trng camp when i had a blocked nose for the whole night
and thought i was confirm gonna die for morning pt.
or not even when we lost during nats despite all the everything we did.

i don't want to grow up.

my affections and wishes towards you are unchanged, but one word from you will silence me on this subject forever. .. but if your feelings have changed, i want to be by your side from this day on.

AWWWW.
kierra knightley is so pretty and her nose is the prettiest nose i've ever seeeen! and mr darcy is so suave and charming. there's like this silent charm about him and his eyesss <3 watch pride and prejudice!

i don't like playing in a competition with IT.
i had IT during nats too.
imagine getting IT on the day you're dying

farewell was today.
felicia was too much.
i wish i had said sth then to stand up for my fellow vcapt.
my hands still reek of marinated chickennn urrrgh.
but i like skewering! and i declare myself a pro

stone



stoning





stoned.

my humongous judo bruise from all the breakfalling!


i'm the PRO-EST! i won 2 gamesssss :D