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just now i was waiting for my turn to use the bathroom so i sat down to watch tv for 5 mins. and there was this scary horror movie on channel 5. 5 mins and i was already scared to close my eyes when i was bathing. :( i know im a grade A wimp. (i knew, ever since my first and last horror movie in p5) anyway i think it's like, the ring or sth.
my mom told me not to watch since i AM going for training camp on monday and sleeping in rj where there's no one and vvvvvv dark at night! :( SUCKS. but im really curious to know what's happening in the show! should i go watch or not???!!! but im really very scared. what if im the only person awake at 3am cos of sinus and i start imaginating stuff!? what can i do? call my partner up and cuddle up to her? i think shi-tien will sock me in the face for disrupting her beauty sleep. call june up? but she looks like the zzzzz dead to the world type of sleeper. no use calling valerie cos she's so WHITE and equally shriek-ish she'd scare me even more. the best choice is caroline i think. carrot the silent observer type very brave and sensible and not nonsensical and macho one, she even took a photo with a giant carrot today! okay, set caroline it is!

ok..good luck to me tonight. i hope i can sleep.. :((( =S
i think i sprained my back i walk funny im going to bring my back check forward so operation, brace, whatever it is i can get it done and over with asap.

just now i was waiting for my turn to use the bathroom so i sat down to watch tv for 5 mins. and there was this scary horror movie on channel 5. 5 mins and i was already scared to close my eyes when i was bathing. :( i know im a grade A wimp. (i knew, ever since my first and last horror movie in p5) anyway i think it's like, the ring or sth.
my mom told me not to watch since i AM going for training camp on monday and sleeping in rj where there's no one and vvvvvv dark at night! :( SUCKS. but im really curious to know what's happening in the show! should i go watch or not???!!! but im really very scared. what if im the only person awake at 3am cos of sinus and i start imaginating stuff!? what can i do? call my partner up and cuddle up to her? i think shi-tien will sock me in the face for disrupting her beauty sleep. call june up? but she looks like the zzzzz dead to the world type of sleeper. no use calling valerie cos she's so WHITE and equally shriek-ish she'd scare me even more. the best choice is caroline i think. carrot the silent observer type very brave and sensible and not nonsensical and macho one, she even took a photo with a giant carrot today! okay, set caroline it is!

ok..good luck to me tonight. i hope i can sleep.. :((( =S
i think i sprained my back i walk funny im going to bring my back check forward so operation, brace, whatever it is i can get it done and over with asap.

last day of school today! everyone was so restless during the last few blocks.
training camp on monday! T_T
after moving all the mats i have a bad right-back-ache. ow.
and im too tired to go to ncc for the sermon. aw, but the pastor's really funneh.

meeting the greens tmr. yay x-man! i like cyclops and rogue. i used to think it was ROW-GUE.

ok to enjoy my new found freedom now before living hell on monday byebye

and june's birthday's coming!

hello today so happening. after training only. met so many pri sch classmates. ok, more like two only. but that's a lot considered to the zero i see the whole year round. :( ah anyway. talked abit to wenjun at the bus stop and it's really nice to know that he's still as nice as ever. and the thing about him sounding abit like coleman chua was amusing. :) no offence though. he's a nice boy. uh. guy aiya samesame. ah but i told him to take bus 56 cos i thought it went to j8 but it didn't. hahAH sorry. he didn't want to walk from ri to j8! ..?!?!? T_T hahahaha. but all the same it made me happy knowing that i've got one more nice friend when we go to rj.

LALALA.
tmr im going to a wedding dinner at malaysia~ shark's fin soup is LOVE <3 (this is to spite june tan mei shan) but i was thinking about it the other day after i watched JAWS on tv then i really think that sharks are scary creatures which lurk in dark waters waiting to pounce on you once they smell blooood. they just eat you with one big chomp and they are so expressionless and uncute it's so freaky. i don't like sharks. i mean like raccoons and elephants and etc.etc are so loveable and cute and so easily to like but sharks are just..humongous unfeeling man eating fishes.
and i hate water. i hate swimming. my worst nightmare is drowning.

eh yahyah i digress too much. i hope tmr's wedding dinner will be fun and yummy! i'll bring my cam along. and shoot random photos for the sake of my unexciting life the whole week at school.
okay BYEBYE
oh i must study ss and do philo and physics! :((

everytime i see the title "strength training" in my email, i get panicky cos i keep thinking it's Mr Tan sending us some intensiveintensive training schedule.

im going bonkers.

MI3 is. heart-stopping.
i like maggie Q!
(maggie mee so Q)

i was so bored today i decided to take my two younger sisters out to the national library just for the sake of going somewhere, thinking that i could handle them. i was pretty sure i could. jocelyn's already p5. anyway so we left the house to take bus 83 and cos amelia didn't have her ezlink i had to give her coins to put into the meter and the FRICKING bus uncle didn't let us onto the bus just because we put in 50cents instead of 55cents. like hello! it's five frickin cents which you can't even use to buy anything at all! i didn't have any 5 cents with me so i told him that. and that retard gave me THE LOOK and still refused to press the button for the bus ticket so i was like what's his effing problem and dug out ten cents from my wallet while my sisters and i stood at the door blocking everyone from coming in. fvcker.
then when we left nlb, i wanted to treat my sisters to subway but the subwayer said nets wasn't accepted and it just happened that i didn't have any cash wimme. so we walked all the way to the shaw tower subway for nothing and had to walk back all the way to the nlb bus stop to take bus 80 home. then when we walked ALL the way there i realised that bus 80 doesn't stop at that bus stop. it stops at the one further up nearer to bugis junction so walk walk walk again we did. i was feeling SO bad because by not knowing the bus routes i made my sisters walkwalkwalk all over with me for nothing, i mean if i were to get lost by myself im fine with that cos i get lost all the time at unfamiliar places but as long as i keep walking i'll manage to get where i want to be. it's quite fun getting lost and wandering around trying to figure out how to get back to familiar grounds, cos you get to see new stuff and when i see sth interesting or worth remembering i tell myself that hey! i didn't know so-and-so shop was here, next time i can come here! yea then we finally found the bus stop and got on the bus in the end.
then the TRAUMA OF THE DAY happened. we were supposed to alight at the bus stop outside june's house to take 62 straight home but when the bus stopped my p5 sister happily went down the double decker bus and off then for some ridiculous reason there were alot of people coming up the double decker and they didn't let my sister and i down and there was this inconsiderate freak of a lady who hit my sister's head with her bulky bag and didn't even say sorry. i wanted to glare at her but i was too busy trying to go down. but then the bus started moving !!! and istarted pressing the dingdong button frantically. three times i pressed, continuously and the fricking bus driver didn't stop! i was like, what the heck. so vroom we went off to the next bus stop with my OTHER sister at the june's house bus stop. i was like o m g. shitttttt. jocelyn's at the bus stop! but then i wasn't freaking too much cos i knew she knew what bus she was supposed to take home. then after amelia and i got off we ran/walked all the way back to the june's house bus stop and my poor 6 year old sister who's legs are half the length of mine had to run and skip along with me as fast as she could cos i was half dragging her along. i was like shitttttt. ugh!! the only thing i wanted to do was get to june's bus stop as fast as i could. i felt really really bad :(
yea but anyway we got there and managed to reunite with my other sister. which was a big relief. arrgghh im not bringing the two kids out on my own ever again till they grow up. i can't handle the role of THE RESPONSIBLE ADULT. no way. it's too much emotional stress. my heart cannot take it. at least with my mom or my older sister im still the kid, im not the one in charge and whatever happens, im not the one who has to make nerve wrecking decisions.
today made me realise that even though i rather dislike my sister, the p5 one, most of the time because she's unhygienic and rude and we catfight all the time which ends up with her crying cos im,well, older, i still care, deep down and it shows in situations like this. whether i like it or not, she's still part of the family that i've grown up in all my life. ad i decided that im gonna try and like it.(her)

we went for mother's day-cum-birthday dinner todayyy. it was my mum's birthday last sunday but we didn't go out cos i had mathchembio (which i have NO MOREEE:)) and my sister had her midyears.
anyway the bars at marina mandarin hotel have funny floors. haha like you know the hole-in-the-floor-with-stuff-in-it-covered-with-a-glass-pane thing is in now? but they had water in the hole instead of glass panes and they had pebbles in them so it looks kind of like a moat around the bars. AND the lighting at the marina mandarin are really bad. like not BAD bad but they're just dim and yknow romantic and stuff so visibility is very bad and the water in the moat-look-alikes were very very very still. haha so being the goon that he was, my dad stepped into the water HAHAHA. it went like this:

-my sisters and i sitting at the bars for fun-
dad and mum walks over.
jocelyn(spinning around in her chair): eh daddy mummy, do you think this is glass or wat-
SPLASSSHH
HAHAAAAA
it was damn funny and everybody turned to stare .AHAHA
HAHA.

thank you limin for the umbrella!! <3

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY!
im in a veryvery good mood now cos i was on the lrt on the way home just now and then there was this little ang moh boy with v long eye lashes who came to sit beside me. his father stood beside the window. then i was talking on the phone when he started tapping his shoe against my shin then i was like, abit annoyed cos his shoe didn't look too clean so i was prepared to glare at him but then he started grinning at me then it was like my heart melted into a puddle of goooo..awww. so i was like aiya, nevermind, since he's so cute, and went back to talking on the phone. then he just sidled up to me and leaned against my right side like i was his CHAIR or sth. i went o_o and looked at him again. and he grinned somemore!!AWW. then i couldn't stop grinning cos i found it quite amusing and funny and cute all at the same time. then the little boy's dad was like HAHA. boy, you're embarrassing her!

T_T <33333 he's so cuteee.

ok anyway chem's OVERRRRRRRR. RAAAAAAAHHH. yippeee. but whether or not i do well.. :( i don't have an affinity with chemistry or numbers(math/physics).

but i think i've got an affinity with kids :D (or maybe he just found me nice and comfy cos im so porrrkyy) aiyo.
NYAHAH.

BYEBYEE

walao i just got back from church service and there's this girl who's my sister's friend's cousin and she's the same age as me and she's from tkgs, which is a random fact, but the thing is im one head taller than her i can see right over her head like seriously, i don't even need to tiptoe or lift my head or what and im like twice as fat as she is. she's so tiny so SMALL and she's sixteen. argh. i felt like a giant standing besides her. giant giant big fat humongous towering GIANT. i tihnk she's quite nice la but thats besides the point. with people like her around, no wonder there's cases of anorexia and bullimia. i wish i can be anorexic.cos i can afford to be. but i can't even manage a successful diet. this sucks.
i want to be short and skinny too.
i don't want to be a big fat tall ugly giant.

nobody understand.s