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J'S A BITCH A BITCH A BITCH A BITCH A BITCH.
WILL I EVER LOVE HER.
SHE'S MAKING IT SO DIFFICULT FOR ME FOR US.
tolerate tolerate tolerate give in give in give she's younger she's younger she's younger you're trying you're trying you're trying you cannot do anything you cannot do anything you cannot do anything so why can't i just tolerate tolerate tolerate give in give in give in she's younger she's younger she's younger because i'm older.
SCREAMS.

say hello to the wallflower
say hello to the girl on the wall
doesn't need to be seen
doesn't need to be heard
doesn't need to be admired
all she wants is to stay on the wall
looking watching observing
say hello to the fly on the wall.

in school there are,
many shrubs many bushes
but not enough tall sturdy and reliable trees.

H now in the bin outside the lifts
bet you didn't know that i don't even like Hs.

zomgoodness i just saw the news and they reported that some people found MAGGOTS and HUGE FLIES in the faux ferrero rocher made in CHINA!!!! AHHHHHH damn GROSS. and i just finished this ENTIRE box of ferrero rochers my dad brought back from CHINA!!! zomg zomg! i am totally grossed out. super disgusttingggggggggggggggggggggggggggg can they be more responsible anot! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEyer!

aiya anyway i think cordyceps looks better and better each time i watch the ten oclock show. hee hee. he's got ncie eyeess

everytime i get pizzed i'll be like, ZZ! GO AWAYYY. #$^%&*)*(% THROW YOU LA! (in my head only obviously i rarely show my discontent, hm unless you're worth it i guess)

i think i get angry/irritated/annoyed easily and over the littlest things, and then get over them just as quickly.
i don't think i've ever been REALLY angry at anyone for more than two days. i still remember (because i've a great memory) but the anger's not there anymore.

but STILL, it's the little things which matter, the little things which speak volumes about people's characters, the little things which may eventually snowball into a big thing.

anyway i am no longer pizzed at N, A and B (though B didn't even say anything).

happy again!

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i wished i hadn't asked hadn't known wished you hadn't talked to me!
SEEEEE
IGNORANCE IS BLISSS
:(

aiyaaaaaaaaa i don't know la. feels sucky to miss out.
and i had to be doing something crappy at that time

it's the 998th post already woooo.
this week has been sucha week full of CSE goodness :D
island creamery today was sooo nice.. the feeling is like xian ku hou tian! after the crazy weekend (actually not so crazy cos i planned my time and finished my eom and ihist way before time!), the crazy mugging for cse the past two days and various other reasons i feel SO GOOD! liberated, satisfied.YAY and tmr there's nothing much on :D what a great end to the term. anyway fyi i've been resisting ice cream since monday after sunday's trip to tom's palette and having reverso and nutella today was MMMMMM. i really like the feeling of xian ku hou tian :D :D

june and i went to coro too and i got mrs tay a present :) she's soooo nice! can't wait to give her!
then we dropped off at hougang mall to get hairties and clips.i've got my KIAP again! so no more using my sister's O.o hairclip during lessons YAY.

i need a haircut and im going SOON. i swear. so heavy and messy i really buay tahan alr. maybe tmr!

anyway: here's something i read online, and her situation really seems all too familiar!
i know i have sheets and sheets and stacks and tons of loose photocopied recipes lying around my room, i know because i come across them once in a while when i'm searching for my MIA history lecture notes (and it happens very often). i used to file them into this practical purple file but over the years the recipes have just found their way to the floor, under my notes, on my table, in a forgotten file, in my drawer..everywhere i'm not sure where! i don't like to throw away my recipes although i never get around to trying every one of them out. there's always this nagging what if, when i want to, when i need it, the thought that i might be chucking THE recipe of the century just leads to me stuffing it back wherever i chanced upon it, telling myself i'll get down to trying it out one day when i'm free.
z!

aiyaaaaaaaaa :(
ignorance is bliss!
sometimes i just wish i hadn't seen stuff hadn't known stuff hadn't felt stuff hadn't done stuff
maybe i should just avoid. sometimes i just want not to know and continue living in my bubble of rain, roses, smells, solitary walks and musings.

ahh i've been so busy today since after school. i didn't even nap this afternoon..
studying for cse, isle dummy's guide took up all my time till now. and i haven't even finished my gp compre! ackk.all i wanto do now is to sit down and do nothing, stone for a while.

because you offered to pick up my ten cents for me!
:)


HELLOO. i have just read part of my cse notes..still got alot more to go......dotdotdotdot. and i am getting ready to watch the 10 oclock show CORDYCEPS :D yay. and i feel like shopping!! i haven't bought anything in a longlonglong time. and can you believe it time FLIES time ZOOMS time DISAPPEARS without warning! i can't believe that it's been about 3 months since i left for china on the 27 of may at the start of the JUNE HOLS. zomg? it is week 10 already, the end of yet ANOTHER gruelling term?! i predict that in a period which will seem like 5 days time, the As will be approaching and we'll all be in a panicked frenzy. eh no wait, i'll make sure i'll start studying way before hand. try la. i can't work under stress! CANNOT.

okok byebye the tube beckons.

haha, alright shauna i stand corrected.
today we got back our h2 cse sbq that i was stressing over! aaaannd heehee i think i did quite well. it feels like i am finally qualified to be a full fledged h2 china study-er. but of course there's still the test on WED and the promos (AHH)

today was my sister's first day at SIM. so eggciting, but the point is..SHE GOT A RIDE HOME on her first day at school!?!? do i not possess any inkling of charm that no one has offered me a ride home from school before?
HAHA ok bluff you, she said it was her primary school classmate from longlong ago.

met this old friend on the way home just now..don't know if he was really a friend, cso we didn't know each other for very long. he was from the tuition centre. but anyway i liked him because he was nice and funny and he was real.not easy in today's world. and today being the first time we've met in almost two years (despite us living one bus stop away from each other in punggol), the fact that he still bothered to wave and smile (GENUINELY!) shows that he's really a nice person. but then seeing him reminds me of the tuition centre EEKS and tuberculosis..and how i ran away. ack wished i hadn't been so naive and silly and don't-know-what-to-do that all i knew was to runrunrun and avoid.

oh okay because i didn't go for dinner and ice cream with the girls :( i treated myself to mr bean's soya ice cream :) and i went to buy myself an 80cents (oral-b!) toothbrush, $1.50 choco coffee timtam and $2.05 vaseline moisturizer..so value for money heehee :D
a little saving a day will go a long way!

and i don't like going being an obligation okayokayokayokayOKAAAYYYY :(

back from east coast again. wanted to cycle today actually but when i got there i just suddenly didn't feel like it anymore, so i went to gelare for ice cream and ate while i was walking to the bus stop. so i just spent my whole morning waking up at 7 till 11 travelling to and fro from east coast without really doing anything except walking alot and hazelnut yoghurt ice cream.

today has been a really good day! :D
i woke up at 6am to finish up my ihist essay, finished at 830, took a short nap till 9 and then was out of the house by 940! i was the first one to reach bugis, so i walked around and got myself lost in bugis junction cos the place is so confusing. located char and we did efficient shopping for the teachers while waiting for shauna :D
met jacq, lunch then IF THERE'RE SEASONS!
ahhh, the show was fab! i think chinese is a beautiful and very nice language. it's amazing how sometimes you can compact so many things you wanto say and so much emotions you wanto express in one sentence or in a few words.

oh right, i forgot to mention that hongcheng came looking for us (or maybe just a certain someone!) at the library when we were there for the play ha!ha! and the five of us trooped to the 10th floor to explore this place which we THINK is the repository.

after the play char and jacq left for their own appointments and i decided to walk further down a bit to shaw tower in search of Tom's Palette! AHH, no regrets because the ice cream was CHEAP and GOOD. double flavours in a small cup is $2.80 only! since i couldn't bring my ice cream onto the bus i walked around aimlessly. AND THEN ZOMG! while i was walking back to the bus stop, i realised that my left shoe's sole had COME OFF halfway zomg, it was flapping away! for don't know how long even before i realised then! i'm going to toot my own horn because i'm really very calm and resilient and brave! HAHA. if it were someone else i bet she would have hopped onto the first cab which came along! but i didn't and i had no money to buy new slippers or sth. just fyi, to get home, i had to walk back to the national library, take a bus, take the mrt, and take another lrt just to get to punggol! imagine all that people i met just now..it was the evening peak hour and i was wlaking slowly and dragging my heels, literally! (to disguise the flapping sole) it was no mean feat because i wanted to walk quickly to get home quickly but i had to walk slowly in order not to worsen the condition of the already open sole..zomg, i'm so brave to have braved the crowd with my flapping platforms. i'm impressed by myself! HAHA. aiya if my mom had been there it would have been a perfect excuse to get new shoes! heehee. k pictures!


us!

ahh very nice. that's their promo board!

AhhhhHHHHHhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhHHHHH~~~~~
can you hear the ups and downs in my AHHHHS?
AHHHHHHHH, i am so exasperated and tired and sick of ihist essay writing ALREADY.
it's especially annoying for me because i cannot process my thoughts and express myself properly!!!! and my brain works at the speed that i walk UGGGGGh. i am so confused by my own arguments and i don't know what i'm writing about everytime i'm halfway through my point when i start off feeling very confident about my argument. U.R.G.HHHH. i need to process i need to produce i need to progresssssssssssss.
my brain is really weird and UGh, stupid. everytime i wanto say something my thoughts will all jumble up together so if i want to say "they're building a park" i'll end up blurting out " they're BARK." AHHH. so embarrasssing i tell you! i don't know what's wrong with my brain and my mouth. SLOW nervous system OR WHAT.

blahBLAAh. i shall stop now and continue tmr morning. seven hundred plus now, at least halfway! UGH. stupid brain.

ACCK ok i hope CORDYCEPS cheers me up :(

990th post!
lunch/tea/dinner with carrot shitty and june today after school :) miss clarity cafe's chicken suckssssssssss. i love CHICKEN! yummy yum yum. okay anyway photos! from my phone..finally haha. shall work on my ihist essay after this for 2 hours before watching my favourite ten oclock show..CORDYCEPS! ahhh dong cong cao/wu song. he's such a good guy at heart even though he's acts like a bad boy being in the mafia. ahh i like. he's a hongkong actor..don't know his name!


aiya, my hands so shakey..3.2 megapixels still so blur! UGH. mine! i didn't use my free banana split card cos i felt like having a browwwwwwwwwnie <3
carrot's virgin trip to ICEKIMO! she dowan to take photo..so only her food!

my group has made a great leap forward for pw and it is heartening to know that we're making good progress despite previous setbacks! OOLALA :D

and fyi! i am home at ONE FOURTEEN PM in the afternoon, earlier than any other person in class! HO. am going out to marina country club soon. if there's no ice cream there, i'll head down to downtown for b&j's which is just a convenient bus ride away YAY. thank goodness for bus number THREE! ehh but i didn't remember wrongly, b&j's are more expensive than the homemade ones we've been eating :( but no choice! haato with the bukit timah girls soon i hope!

i'm craving ice cream so much that i'm doing a search for ice cream parlours near my house for future reference.
#1: marina country club. (have been wanting to go there for a long time! OH YAY i shall go check it out. it's called 7th Heaven..wonder if it's any good! ooohh can't wait)

#2: Tom's Palette at Shaw towers..which is the building near the nat library whose subway i like to go. not near my house at all.. but i can try the next time i go to the library!! :D they've got chrysantemum(?)..sounds yummy like jasmine

(i've got four websites open..all ice cream parlours!)

#3: http://www.ice3cafe.com/
#4: http://www.icecreamgallery.com/
#5: http://www.thedailyscoop.com.sg/
#6: http://www.coldrock.com.sg/ (i think this is the one sarah and joyce were talking about)
#7: http://www.haato.com.sg/ zOMG! i wanto goooooooooooooooooooooooo. all the exotic and funny flavours sound so yummy.
#8: from carrot, PLUCK...shall wait impatiently for her to bring me there :D

AHEm. only the first one is reallly near my house! and it's so .. unheard of. i reallyreallyreally hope it's good cos the rest are farfarfarfarfarfar away don'tknowwhere. UGH so annoying living here!

oh that day i tried jackfruit and sweet potato at island creamery T.T it was quite nice! but i got stomachache at night. indigestion i think!

i am feeling PENT UP FRUSTRATION now and i have no outlet!
it's all because i am VERY TIRED and WANTO TAKE A NAP but i CAN'T GO TO SLEEP.

UGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH.
i want chocolate and ICE CREAM

and i cannot stand it when my mother makes me WATCH MY YOUNGER SISTER. THE ONE WHO ANNOYS ME ABOUT THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY FIVE DAYS A YEAR. UGGGGHHH.

i want a sheltered pampered life, i want to have lots of money,i want to be a brat i don't want to be ME right NOW. i wannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnt.

heyhey. this is my 985th post. 15 more posts to go to the 1000th post! everybody hurry to get into my good books so that you'll be mentioned in my 1000th post :D

anyway i have some stuff that i need to vomit out. since i don't really want to say it out loud i shall write.
it's this thing about councillors. maybe i've still got this old school concept of prefects, and how i equate councillors and prefects to be of the same..league. i expect them to be people i can look up to, people i can be in awe of, people who are rule abiding and fun at the same time, people who are honest and have integrity, people who can command my respect. but somehow, it hasn't really been the case. well i sure don't know any councillor whom i can say has measured up. it's still just my two cents worth, but i think that i should be always aware of how much i can do, know my limits and my weaknesses, and try to go around them instead of running into them head on repeatedly. everyone has that same twenty four hours, some people just have the unexplainable capability to do everything they want to do in the twenty four hours and they just have this capacity for greater things. but it is not for everyone! i feel that people should just acknowledge and accept that most of the time, they're not superman or superwoman. we can have ambitions and dreams and ideals, but we must also be kind to ourselves and not give ourselves so much work and pressure and self-expectations that we can hardly breathe and end up being a lousy jack of all trades and a master of none.

okay on a more..random and daily-update kindof note, my sister's going to SIM in a week's time, so eggciting! she's going to spend 3 years there so if i decide to enrol at SIM too, i'll be in the same school as she is! that'd be fun. i've always wanted that. in primary school we were, but we were in different sessions and anyway we were too young to like really hang out together. oohooh and the idea of NOT following the crowd and going the mainstream route to NUS, SMU, NTU is really appealing..partly because i'm already so off the path that it would be a waste and a bore to just end up where everyone eventually will. not to mention the (i predict) veryveryvery stiff competition from the rest of the rafflesians and hwaches and whoever else.

that's now, maybe i'll change my mind when it's time to choose..? well. PROMOS first!
to work NOW TA!

hooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooked! onto this song. =) song of the moment! credit to coot :D this song gives me the grey colour vibe..don't know why!
and i can now transfer songs into my phone! and upload photos..but LAZY.

AHHHHHH. why all the channels all LHL! i can't even watch tv on sunday -.- UGGHHH. annoying leh.

anyway went skating this morning at east coast..get away from home la basically. gee my sister is really annoying. she's the best la. i think my mom's going to mental breakdown already.

there's a new subway staff! heehee because he's ___. the first person to guess correctly on the first try i treat you ice cream! very open-ended one..i don't think anyone will get it on the first try haha i can save $.

anyway go http://www.blogthings.com/howprissyareyouquiz/ hahaha charmaine found this online. we're quite amused.
and she's got me excited about the play this coming sat YAY YAY YAY. shall try and finish up all my homework due next week!!!! GO GO GO PRISSYYYYYYLAAAAAA.

You Are Not Prissy

You're the furthest thing from a princess - and you probably stay far away from any princess types you know.You have an easygoing approach to living. It doesn't take a lot to make you happy.And when life requires it, you're ready to get your hand a little dirty.There's no problem you're too prissy to tackle!

baaaaack from camp.
i thought the ann tat questions activity made quite an impression. some people surprised me, a good thing.

but last night was sooooo cold. the sleeping bag too short i cannot cover my face from the blasting air con. in the middle of the night i saw shitty back in her bag so i went to frisk her in search of my windbreaker. actually it was more of a blind search cos it was so dark. in the end i just uprooted myself and went outside to sleep...i was reallyreally quite spooked by all the noise in the dark..and i'm glad i put the faith in Him which helped me to sleep. :)

she sat on the bus
wearing a borrowed softball windbreaker
wondering what it's like to be in the team again
conjured up the competition, the fight; mental images
picturing accidents and imagining possible fatal ends
she shuddered, dismissed the thought and
went back to staring out of the window.

how rare that i'll reminisce about judo.

last night M and A were very impressed with my left hand writing and M thought i was left handed for a moment.. i feel very proud of my progress towards being ambidextrous :D haha.

I LOVE THIS WEATHER, dark gloomy windy cold stormy rainy sad slippery wet YAY.

BITC
z, why can't i attend baking school instead.

bleh today kinda sucked.
and i dislike fridays because of the timetable. yucks
i took a sneaky shot of char (TIT FOR TAT) today but fortunately for her, i cannot upload pictures from my phone yet.beacuse my cd writer is spoilt and i can't install the k810i software for music and photos.

although i'm grateful for having my friends with me, but somehow i feel that isle works like the CCP. the relations.

zzzzz i don't know what feelings i'm feeling these days. it's like, no feeling. i feel weird that i am feeling nothing but then feeling weird about feeling nothing is already a feeling, and feeling nothing itself is ALSO a feeling. so what the heck am i feeling?!

today wormy asked me if i missed her.
it occurred to me that i haven't been missing anybody these days. which..relates to the no feeling thing abit i guess..? aiya, i feel like i'm becoming a stone soon, with no feelings. HA. i just said i FEEL like i'm becoming a stone soon. so i'm still feeling something but i don't feel like i'm feeling a feeling, UGH i don't know what myself either.

shitty let me listen to two nice songs on her ipod today..the timing was good because i was looking for nice songs to put into my k810i.i can't remember the song titles..shall ask her online when i see her online. sometimes it makes me abit sad that i don't share the same tastes as her,but then i think, maybe it's because we're different that we've been friends for so long, because we can show and teach and open each other's eyes to new things. and there's no rule saying that we have to be identical to be together.

MY MOUTH IS ON FIRE!!!!!
i am eating this chilli tapioca snack we got from batam last week. such huge packet and SO HOT, don't think we'll finish it anytime soon. ZOMG ON FIREEE. i shall stop eating.

anyway. wasn't intending on coming home early today, but i did. when i wanto go home, i can't. when i don't want to, i can. ridiculous.
and why is there always something on in the late afternoon on my shortest day of the week.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!always!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hello! so many things to blog about i don't know where to start.
oh okay! i am very pleased with myself today..because i did not eat more than what i needed and i bought 3 pens which cost less than a dollar each! YAY. so pleased with myself and my thrift :D:D:D but then...that was after i spent $3.80 on two pens which i DROPPED!! DROPPED!!! and they cannot work anymore UGH. my heart very pain because my pocket got big hole also. i shall start on a makeover for my pencil case. i shall attempt to keep the cost of one pen to less than a dollar fifty. (let's see if this ninety cents pen lasts/nice to use) out of the 3 pens, one of them is pink. WHY PINK? i was analysing the rationale for my choice while walking back to the canteen from the bookshop and realised it's because: black blue and red are the common colours used for everything else, green is for corrections, purple is too close to blue, orange and yellow are too bright to be seen, and therefore, the only other available coloured pen perfect for standing out when you need to emphsize a point on all my boring readings is PINK! so no choice lor. anyway i think my reasoning is very logical and was feeling once again, very pleased with myself ha!ha!

ohoh and another thing to pleased about is that i utilised my 2 hour break today purposefully :D by completing my one-day overdue lit essay :D:D:D even though i thought i took really long processing things in my brain and putting them in words, i am still very pleased at my efficiency and willpower to finish up my homework instead of reading chinatoday/time/psychology today in the library. HEEHEE. therefore i went for dinner/ice cream with jacq and char with a peace of mind :D:D and after cse lecture i went down to the canteen to read my h1 readings! HEEHEEEEEE. I'M SO PLEASED WITH MYSELF! i managed to finish only 4 pages though...so boringgggggg leh, tom saichls. even therain and the super tall boy eating hokkien mee in front of me were more interesting..
speaking of cse...I AM VERY SCARED. alamak! ms lim says for h2 promos it's TWO essays and ONE sbq in THREE HOURS consecutively! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. and all i've been through is one miserly sbq for the cts?!?! and the h2 class is so...AHHH pressurizing! h1 atmosphere is so relaxed that i feel very at ease and therefore work better..BUT H2 everybody is so..brainy and knows everything about china i feel so..stressed, like i've to risssseeee up to their standard. AND it doesn't help when my two other classmates are MS LIM'S STAR PUPILS..AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. and i just handed in the first h2 marked assignment to her on monday..dya know how pressured i was doing the sbq homework?! because i felt that i had to do relatively well to meet the class' standards! which are so blerdy high. zomg, i just hope i did okay.

okay haha i soundlike i dislike cse, but nono, i still like. but just..h2 expects alot more from me i guess and i just need to adjust more. alright, shall go read cse for tutorial tmr nowzzzzzzzz
OHOH i shall try to upload pictures from my phone .. so eggciing!

yoohoo.
i should be doing my math assignment 8 but all i'm keen on doing right now is to just collapse on the bed and sleep. but! if i sleep now, i won't be able to sleep later at night which would mean yet another zombie-ish day tmr. NOOOOOOO. so suffer now. my eyelids are drooping all over the place. and i can't summon the energy to do any homework. UGH. consequences of sleep deprivation.

anyway today has been quite a worry wrought day. because i set my alarm for 23o intending to allow myself to oversleep till 3, but i only woke up at 5! z. therefore i could only manage to compile the gp presentation and a small bit of seahist. doing work at 5 in the morning is thrice as efficient as doing work at 10 at night for me. so i went to school worrying about homework and having a thousand things on my mental to-do list, which i hate because i am a very simple minded person and cannot afford to have too many things on my mind if not i'll be very stressedout. i was so worried (and trying not to be at the same time) the whole of yesterday and today about undone homework that i couldn't find the zest for my new k810i till just now. k810i! it's the first time that i've actually gotten a phone that i wanted! previously it's more of a dad buys phone.."nah, you use this new phone." but YAY. now i'll be able to sneak shots during lectures and class and everywhere else because i like to take sneaky and candid shots of people ha!ha! so watch this space for pictures! eh but must wait because i still have to figure out my new phone.

wormy was the first to sms me on my new phone and the first i sent out an sms to.
shi-tien the first to take a photo (note: of herself), val (note: of herself TOO) coming in a close second..HAHA

well okay, byeeeeeeeeeee

today,
rda in the morning,
lunch with the val and coot,
library, home.

everyone was kind of lethargic today during rda..i didn't really have the patience for warren today..i didn't even have the same enthusiasm for cheryl and D. Z! even D was being naughty.
i have a really itchy and quite bad and red looking rash on both arms. from batam? don't know but so UGHHH.

library today..2 and a half hours poring over the history books DOUBLE UGHH. boredom. then val and her muffin popped out which made me quite :D inside even though i was too brain dead to show it haha.

was reading this woman and child trafficking book i borrowed on the train. i cannot express my disgust. i felt like screaming at all the men in the train. how can they? we're all human! they've got no heart.
...

z but hm, doesn't seem to have much on cambodia, i don't know where to find info! :(

batam was nice and relaxing.. didn't really see anybody at all, even other tourists, except my family members. and our room was ten steps away from the beach..we could climb off the balcony too. shiok, i spent my morning and evening there listening to the waves.

sometimes it makes me angry that some people have X and i cannot
or that some people can do X and i cannot
or that some people is so X and i am not
or that some people don't need to do X and i need to.
sometimes i really feel so overwhelmed with jealousy.

i just want to be selfish,
sometimes.

good morrrrrrrrrning!
it's rainingggggggg!
rhymes! :D
i can smell, the rain! i feel like smsing people to wake up and smell the wonderful smell of rain but i think better not, if they don't appreciate i'll kena whacked when i see them.

i'm feeling quite cheery on the inside, though my face doesn't look like it. if anyone talks to me right now i'd still be my usual grouchy morning self. i hope the rain doesn't affect the batam trip in any way...! i'll be reallyreally reallly :( oho. pa's back. with 1 monstrous dog and 1 equally monstrous pig. soft toys la. probably for my younger sisters. chey give me i also don't want. the only toy i truly loved (love of a 5-year old ahhhhhh the innocence!) that wasn't barbie, was probably the orange doraemon i used to carry to sleep every night till the neck tore and all the fuzz inside starting oozing all over.

ACK.it's seven! i'm supposed to try and do some work before leaving at9! which is why i'm up, NOW. ackackack.everytime i come online there's always "admin" stuff to do first ha. blog,check email, blogsurf, send emails to people, blahblah. okok byeeeeeeeee i must remember to buy batteries later.

z.
zomg i am so sianzzzzzzzzzzz.
i am going to morph into a stone soon.
ngiam will have a new friend.

just now i had banana oreo bubbletea..YUCK
and western food...YUCKKK lousy chicken.
with chilli which looked like red jell-o...YUCK.
and my house here doesnt sell seaweed calbee potatio chisp! :(

considering that i'm going to batam tmr(last minute decision..like, yesterday.), i should get down to doing the homework on my longlonglong list of due-on-mondays. but so siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnzzzzzzzzzzzz cannot la. i think everytime i stone my mouth will be agape. ok i am going to morph into a stonefish.

ahhhhhhso siannnnnnnnn i don't even wanto type anymore.lazy

I'VE BEEN SUCHA DONKEY TODAY. zz. today hasn't been very good i suppose, although i don't feel very upset.

donkeyness#1: set the alarm earlier for 530 but ended up shutting off the alarm and waking up at 630 when my mom came banging on the door, then an untimely bout of stomachache(!) therefore LATE.

donkeyness#2: perhaps i should have picked another p.e. elective because the basic skating we do during p.e. is fun, but of not much use except to let me realise how much i miss blading :(

donkeyness#3: not much of donkeyness on my part, but I WAITED A BLOODY FORTY MINUTES FOR STUPID ONEFIVESIX OUTSIDE RJ!!!! AND THE STUPID WEATHER WAS SO HOTTTTTTT and all the pollution UGH.

donkeyness #4: i just bought myself another one of the BLACK 0.38 pens when what i wanted to get was the BLACK refill and the brown and maroon pen!!!!! AIYAAAAAAAAA. why am i so stupid! and sucha DONKEY. and i only realised what i did after i walked out of the shop. AIYAAAAAAAAA. if youall watch the jackie chan cartoon, i am sounding like the jackie chan's father/the old man. AIYYAAAAA. gr. wasted $1.80! and i'm already so broke. somehow hanging around all those smart friends of mine doesn't seem to show any rubbing off on me..i think i just become stupider and blurer.

Z. well anyway okay ranting over, dental appt today. i think i'll be removing my FOUR wisdom teeth after promos :( FOUR why! it doesn't even have any effect on my intelligence (or lack of) and it's going to be so much pain and agony :(

oh well, yesterday i went to develop photos! because i've decided to come up with a WALL OF FAME. where i paste photos. if you appear on my wall of fame, be honoured because it probably means i really like you so much that i don't mind seeing your face 24/7. OR it could just mean that i look particularly nice in that photo (and you happen to be in it) ha!ha! :D

i think it's ridiculous when you lend someone a pencil and she goes like OH ZOMG, THANKS I LOVE YOU. eh, i know it's v picky and petty of me and it's just a v dramatic form of expression but i don't think you should fling and throw these i love yous so casually, yknow. i love yous are meant to be sincere and honest and heartfelt and genuine and real proclaimation of extreme affection and liking, not to express gratitude la, hello. and if i love yous are so easy to earn and give away, then okay lor whoever can sponsor my notebook, my digicam and my new phone i will love you also. my point being, i love yous are meant for special people and they are supposed to be real. if you really understand and treasure the meaning of i love yous, it shouldn't be always at the tip of your tongue and so easily given away. yknow like a boy is proposing and he finds it difficult to say i love you because of all the emotions and fear of rejection? because he loves soooo much that's why he fears that his love is not reciprocated right! therefore i love yous should be earned, they shouldn't come easy and they should withstand the test of time before you really mean it.
in my dictionary, i love yous are only meant for special people i feel deserve my care and affection.

on a random note, my sister is studying psychology now. maybe..i will too?

i am still feeling tired.
i think i need to drink more water and sleep more if not i'm going to fall sickkkkkkkk and continue getting sinus every night and morning :( sucks.

anyway i just splurged the 10 bucks i saved from lunch yesterday on random things from thelifebookstore and happyhouse...the things are very nice so i feel :) but then ten bucks fly away i feel abit :( but i can't do anything since i've already spent the money so i shall just concentrate on feeling :) so that :) can become :D !

haha. i'm so weird.
school tmr...oh but it'll be our first skating class! ..like, FINALLY. heehee.
okay, do homework now BYEE!

giraffes can stretch their tongues longer than i can stretch for sit-and-reach!

their tongues can stretch a maximum of 53cm and the tallest giraffe in the world is 6.1m tall.

zzzz
i am sleeepy haha.
sleepover at shauna's house last night after a failed attempt of seeing the jap girls off -.-
we watched part of chocolat, and then stuart little and then part of taxi.
i've read chocolat the book which is quite nice really, and the movie is really O.O because of all the chocolateee. shall borrow it from the sch library some day when i've the time to watch.

we went to sleep at only 3 plus! and duh, i was the first one to konk out. at first it was jacq who started snoozing on the couch, but then when we were in our beds, i started zzz-ing one quarter way through the girl chitchat session. and i woke up super early at SEVEN! no one was awake except ASH, the dog. so i spent my next 2 hours plus waiting for the rest to wake up with him. but unfortunately i've no experience with dog play so i didn't realise that i was supposed to throw him the tennis ball he was trying to pass me with his mouth, ah quite cute really! he kept walking back and forth from me to the ball and it took me SO LONG to realise that i was supposed to follow him to get the ball. ash is the most obedient dog i've ever known..(don't know many dogs actually) and he likes to lick myhands don't know why!

ah yea then paragon we went, lunch, photos, cheeeesecake which i could tahan amazingly! and now i'm home. i want to go to the library later. was going to take a nap at first but i think now no time already..but i am fallinggg asleeeep as i'm typingggg. Z i'm such a lousy stayover buddy because i really SLEEEPover. the other time pw also! i was the first to zzz.

alright photos another time when i get from sarah too. ta!

ahhh! i am listening to the goong songs now on youtube and the mvs are making me feel... :( and :) eeeyer that's why i really dislike the aftermath of watching an ou xiang ju. because everything feels so surreal and you are just basking in the fantasy of love lost and found blahblah and you just don't want to come out from your fantasies and back to life and reality even know you have to! uggh! but i really felt like listening to the songs leh. which is rare, cos i'm not much of a music person.

YAWNNNNNN. today is the firstday in the whole week that i'm back in the afternoon. maybe i should go take an afternoon nap, what a luxury! aiyo. i used to borrow the liu xing hua yuan dvd to watch every december since the first time i watched it..

ehhh i just remembered that i cried when shin goon started crying in the show! because normally he's so act cool act macho and like a cold fish, the implications of him crying=situation v bad and must be super sad and he must be super affected so! AH SO SAD. i feel like crying now ughhhh i feel stupid but ahhhh.

aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa the goong song so sad :( :( :( i feel very sad and sleepy now. bad combination! it's like, cold and hungry! or hot and angry!

airport later...okay la i think i go zzz. i'm hungry! and dinner's not cooked yet..lunch on fridays are always so rushed aiya, but this one cannot do without, that one also cannot do without! spiritual vs. physical!

YAWNYAWN. :( so sad so sad the song!

the jap girls left this morning..maybe seeing them off tmr night, aiya quite sad!
but i think they should be happy to be going home to japan already..singapore so HOT. oh and we took class photo with them today! i think it's our first proper class photo with everybody who's supposed to be in our class in it.
char and i were reminiscing our first class photo at the parade sq..on the day borray wore jacq's rg pinafore ha!ha!

botak jones with some people in class today. quite good and value for $! girlfriends, next time we go?

zz got ihist tutorial to do now..
and pw report to compile..cse sbq...seahist term paper...lit anthology (! dare i still call myself a responsible lit rep-.-)...lit p&p assignment...math assignmentS... and i have so many books i want to readddd. and every time i go to borders i just feel like buying every single book on the shelves. and the bakingbooks toooo. $_$ where for art thou $ ?

luxury is being able to buy whatever you want at that moment in time.
luxury is being able to eat whatever you feel like eating at that moment in time. (next time i hire personal chef. who can cook me anything and everything from honeydew juice to kfc to sharks finsoup.)

lying down in the parade sq in the morning is very nice. the sky is very nice, like tauhuey.

oh eh i can't view my tagboard from home but keep tagging!i'll go to school to reply someday haha.