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yknow i think i derive joy from planning things.
like, planning my weekly budget, planning my homework schedule, planning for a camp etcetc
carrying it out is another matter la, but planning kinda gives me a sense of satisfaction. like, i'm part of making things happen!

but then i don't think i do very well under stress or pressure. oh so maybe that's why i love planning so much. because planning ahead helps me to finish things i need to do. and like, i have power! over my life and time.

aiya i need to stop living in the future. i need to live in the present first, otherwise it will soon become history and my future will be in a dire state!!

Your Quirk Factor: 53%

You're a pretty quirky person, but you're just normal enough to hide it. Congratulations - you've fooled other people into thinking you're just like them!

You Should Rule Saturn

Saturn is a mysterious planet that can rarely be seen with the naked eye. You are perfect to rule Saturn because like its rings, you don't always follow the rules of nature. And like Saturn, to really be able to understand you, someone delve beyond your appearance. You are not an easy person to befriend. However, once you enter a friendship, you'll be a friend for life. You think slowly but deeply. You only gain great understanding after a situation has past.

You Are a Powdered Devil's Food Donut

A total sweetheart on the outside, you love to fool people with your innocent image. On the inside you're a little darker, richer, and more complex. You're a hedonist who demands more than one pleasure at a time. Decadent and daring, you test the limits of human indulgence.

Your Travel Personality Is: The Adventurer

For you, travel is how you learn about the world. And you like to learn the stuff that's not in guidebooks. You truly have wanderlust. When you're not traveling, you're dreaming about where you'll go next. And your travels are truly legendary - they leave you with stories you'll be telling for the rest of your life!

because no one seems to understand my WOES about being 29 in 11 years time and having an 18 year old sister.....I SHALL BLOG ABOUT IT. all i get are blank stares, repeated blinks and the general "er..." GAH i suppose because nobody i know have siblings less than half their age! either that or they're THE baby of the house. in 11 years time i shall be bordering on thirty and my sister will be in the prime of her youth! i can't really express my feelings about it but just the thought of it generates alot of apprehension, dread, disbelief,... and general blahness.
then again, i can totally imagine the four of us meeting up for lunch and shopping dates on weekdays when the two younger ones end school, or on weekends. sounds fun! but my elder sister and i will probably take turns footing the bill huh. or i'll bully her into it! :D

but thinking from her view, life will damn good. with 3 older sisters whose mean age is 28 and 1/3! working, financially independent and probably not around most of the time.. SO LUCKYYYY she'll get to hang out with my mom at home ALL the time! and when she comes home from school my mom will open the door for her, wash her dishes, cook her meals, buy her stuff, drive her to school. my parents will pamper her because there's nobody else to baby!! ahhh thinking of all these make me so indignant i feel like bawling in indignance and jealousy. :( :( :( really reallly..i don't think anyone of you reading my blog understands! you probably think i'm a childish, immature, spoilt little green eyed girl. if only my mom would drive me to school pick me up, or even open the door for me even though i have my own keys. if only my mom were at least sometimes free to take me out for mom-daughter shopping bonding time and have lunch at nice air conditioned expensive places with me. if only my mom will do stuff for me because i am not "old enough already" because i am not "elder sister to two younger ones" because i am not "old enough to take care of your younger siblings!".if only my mom will bring me out instead of asking me to stay home or come home earlier because i have to police the rebellious thirtheen year old from running out of the house.if only my mom can agree to taking me out for my birthday dinner in town instead of staying home for delivery because the kids have school the next day and we cannot come home too late.


aiya enough.

SCREAMMMMMMMSSSS why do they have to change the NLB website! i hate the new layout i don't care if it looks hip and cool and trendy I CAN'T NAVIGATE

it's SO ANNOYING I CAN'T NAVIGATE I CAN'T FIND THE ERESOURCES I WANTO FIND
SCREAMs.

AND I HATE THE HEAT> ITS CRUSHING ME TO EXPLOSIOn

i am borrrrrrrrrrrrrred and sian
but how can i be bored when i have 4 essays to write, 3 of them due next week and one test on monday to study for and proper revision waiting waiting waiting and still waiting for me?

homework isn't very entertaining or enjoyable huh

TEACH LESS LEARN MORE
well then i suppose i'm happier being a sponge! it's not like we sponge without thinking.

i.am.going.to.fall.asleep.soon.

and i am still super thirsty from the bak kut teh more than six hours ago!!
and i feel like drinking teh ping, and tcc banana soymilk shake and bubbletea

i realise alot of my friends stress easily and badly
so...i guess that's why there's me :)

ohmyTIAN my birthday cake is damn nice! (FROM CHOCZ LEHHZZZZ)

anyway i have survived yet another friday.quite unhappening, except that i realise that understanding the opposite sex is probably beyond me.in the near future at least. somehow some boys think that enforcing their own superhero fantasies on (unfortunate, but goodnaturedly resigned) birthday boy is fun. (which reminds me of a certain cca farewell at east coast park in sec 2 where all the poor male and female juniors were flashed by an unfortunate senior.) i am not particularly angered and actually the matter isn't extremely serious really, since the birthday boy was amazingly, not pissed, but i just can't stomach the fact that the pranksters themselves wouldn't tolerate such er, pranks played on them. ha i bet you one thousand dollars they will be damnnnnnnn pissed off if it happened to them.
but it is heartening to know that at least half of the boys were too sensible to join in.

do unto others what you want others to do unto you, yknow?
just like how i wouldn't agree to dunking people in the pool because i wouldn't want to be dunked myself. if anyone did the person will probably live in guilt hurhur.
if in future my son comes home crying because someone did it to him you see if i will stomp all the way to school and wring their skinny necks or not.

ON A LIGHTER NOTE,
i have new grapefruit-smelling shampoo which i am loving because it smells really good. doesn't really last, but i look forward to bathing when i come home from school anyway :D
it's just like the passionfruit/mango body wash char got me which i use after pe. it's doubly fun when i hear strangers going "wahhhh smells damn good ah!" from outside the cubicle :D :D

ohoh anyway if any friend of mine wants something from the body shop let me know by the weekend cos i have 20% discount for a one-off purchase!

this birthday is the last that i'll spend in school in my school uniform, and it has been very good! i am abit brain dead today, it didn't really feel like my birthday, my mind has been quite blank, like i don't know what to think. BUT one thing i know and am thankful for is how much LOVE i've received today! not that it isn't there on other days, but i am completely overwhelmed by the expression of it for me by everybody.

i counted already, i have 16 cards! ah! only short of 2 :( BUT to quote C, a few of the cards themselves have already brought me the same amount (or more) of love that 18 cards will bring. i was reading some during lit lecture and hidden at one corner, i felt my heart expand like crazy with love warmth and all things wonderful that i felt like crying and laughing out loud at the same time that if someone had talked to me then i would have probably let out a strangled croak. i think words are really powerful. it made my day beautiful. it made my heart explode. even without my special blouse that i wear on special days.

stuff from boys in class got my science friends grouching about the inadequacies of the male species in their class HAHAH

i have 2 baking books! looking through the recipes have rekindled my inner baker. i am once again filled with this intense want to bake wonderful smelling yummy tasting little pretty edible things that make people ohsohappy!

THANKSSSSSSSSSS to all who have made my day beautiful I AM HAPPY.
a particular pink card and a particular ice-cream covered book gave me extra joy.
oh and i have silly happythreefriends who thought that they had to plan a bigBANG to make me happy. but lovable all the same because i know they care from the heart.

this is from baika's friend's blog

You are an oatmeal raisin cookie!
You seem very centered and peaceful, like someone who'd be a responsible, dependable friend. You have a certain sweetness, but you're never fake-nice to people. You are as comforting as a delicious bowl of oatmeal (in cookie form), sprinkled with tasty bits of dried fruit. You probably love spending time outdoors, especially when it's warm out. Even on the hottest days, you never turn into a melty mess.

You're 6:49 a.m.
You're the time of day right around sunrise, when the sky is still a pale bluish gray. The streets are empty, and the grass and leaves are a little bit sparkly with dew. You are the sound of a few chirpy birds outside the window. You are quiet, peaceful, and contemplative. If you move slowly, it's not because you're lazy ? it's because you know there's no reason to rush. You move like a relaxed cat, pausing for deep stretches that make your muscles feel alive. You are long sips of tea or coffee (out of a mug that's held with both hands) that slowly warm your insides just as the sun is brightening the sky.

lame un-funny jokes make me roll my eyes and wanto go UGHHHHH and shake the person silly. especially when they contribute to my overflowing inbox!!

anyway Ma Maison today was goooood! i need to check out when they serve their ala carte menu though! SAUSAGES! brownie! soon! :D

i would like to have a polariod taken for keeps!

helloo today is FRIESDAY!
i just received my package from university of surrey receiving mail is always fun! :D
anyway if you're looking to go overseas you can visit the universities' websites and some actually offer this complimentary service to send you their admissions guide of the year. so i went and registered for one to test it out and they really sent it here F.O.C! haha. receiving mail gives me this kind of happy excited feeling.

AND I FINISHED READING POTTER! yay! happy ending i love happy endings. horrible shi-tien tried to tell me the ending when i was already finishing it and then i found out later that she bluffed me. she said that lord V took over the world. TSKKKKKK. and anyway KHOOST didn't i just tell you not to like break anything that monday we caught up at the stadium steps!?!? and then today you happily relate how you ended up cushioning someone's fall. TSK TSK TSKKK.
anyway i haven't decided what i wanto do on my birthday i'll think about it first. and we can't possibly take turns to piggyback you while kite-flying :( see la. told you to be careful during training already! you got drink water anot

oh hahah i think it's quite funny that they named their kid Albus Severus. oh but the most funny parts are about Hagrid and all his oversized stuff. even when they were talking about Mad Eye being dead and all i couldn't help laughing out loud at "Hagrid...blowing his nose on his table-cloth sized hankerchief" and later on, his "bucket sized cup" etcetc.

ok i need to go...do....HOMEWORK ughhh. BLIMEY! hahahah harry potter hangover. i'm so behind times!

this is completely blatant
but i have this penchant for stuff with abstract designs. (as long as they're not morbid)

ughhh the sun is so HOTTTTT. i feel like permanently sticking my head in the freezer.

ANYWAY i got my D for 2.4! Oh YEA OH YEA. i feel like doing the hawaiian dance too OH YEA OH YEA. this is like, probably my personal best ever since i quit judo. OH YEA OH YEA. i just hope i can get silver overall la. if not for the exemption from pe lessons i will gladly settle for bronze. but anyhow, i now see my legs in a different light. you go legs! oh er actually yesterday i prayed about it also..don't know if it was really God, but thanks anyway :)

GO LEGS GO LEGS. oH YEA OH YEA

oh anyway i found out impressive stuff about 2 of my friends today- candice and eileen. i shall tell candice personally about hers, but i shall help eileen publicize her amazing win at a national poetry competition! but first i must go and google it to find evidence.
aha! here: EILEEN HO the judges cancelled 2nd and 3rd position because her poem was too good!

ok..i am now very very tired..from the running...zzzzz ohoh really hope the camp briefing on sat will be good! and that we can go and that it's meaningful AND fun. and hope monday's dinner with the girs will be fun toooo, even though i have to miss my 7oclock show :(, it will make my monday so much more eggciting! hope that i will get 18 cards next week tooooooooooooooo

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

today i suddenly didn't feel like spending my 2 hour break before cse in the library so i sat outside lt5 reading harry potter till the class ended econs. then went down to the canteen with char and the rest for lunch..i shall do it more often!

i think even i get tired of my own company sometimes, and besides i need to work towards my goal!goaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal.

ugh why issit always like thaaaaat. it always looks like it's going to rain heavily because of the looming grey clouds but it never rains!! like after a while the grey clouds will clear :(

craaaaaaaaaapp 2.4 tmr MENTAL SCREAM. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz no words can describe my dread.

ok i shall not be stoned and go do WORK.

oh right, i found out during cse that i was reading THE WRONG HARRY POTTER BOOK. as in, i was reading the 7th book before the 6th!!!! or issit the 6th before the 5th. but in any case i was reading them in the wrong order which explained why i was so confused as to why dumbledore was suddenly dead AND gay -.- supposedly anyway

okok byebye

ugh! must you take things to such extremes? it only shows how ridiculous, bitter, un-empathetic and childish you are. you know i don't mind being a friend but sometimes your actions and words are so unappealing i don't know how to.

haha er, i keep doing quizzes from ian's blog. but i think other people will do this quiz too because it's actually quite accurate! and this quiz is amazing cos it asks so many questions that i've thought of answers to before!

but i SO don't wanto be a teacher or medicine guru. you will all fail your exams and die of drug poisoning.

You Are An INFJ

The Protector You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity. Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is. You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience. You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them. In love, you truly see relationships as an opportunity to connect and grow. You enjoy relationships as long as they are improving and changing. You can't stand stagnation. At work, you stay motivated and happy... as long as you are working toward a dream you support. You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher. How you see yourself: Hardworking, ethical, and helpful When other people don't get you, they see you as: Manipulative, weak, and unstable

yknow sometimes i wonder if my lose-also-nevermind attitude impedes my improvement. what if one day it comes to a point when i can successfully convince myself "if you get U it's okay. if you get S it's a bonus!"
...
haha er, actually no la i'm exaggerating cos i think that i am way more discerning and sane than that. i just don't think risking breaking an arm or leg just to win is worth it. or that getting a grade lower than the norm in an elite school means that they sky is falling down on me. i hope i sound convincing..but i really think that credit goes to rj this time, for saving us from pity and from being the butt of jokes. because the disparity between potong pasir and bukit timah is waayyyyyyyyyyy to wide. well but i suppose we could give potong pasir that bit of credit for trying (albeit too hard maybe) for being impartial. knowing my limitations at public speaking, i'm okay la. can't help feeling a little stung but i think it's got to do mostly with the expectations of being elite. but then i quickly realise that i am but only priscilla gan.. and lorraine loh i am not crying at home!!
ok i shall now stop talking about this in case it comes off as trying hard to cover up for major-i-am-so-upset-i-am-going-to-cry depression

oh anyhow LORRAINE remember to watch the video i told you about! (points to bottom posts) aiya i wouldn't know whether or not you see this until you tell me monday. haha well ok it's veryvery funny go watch!

since today is my sister's birthday and i'm on the subject of birthdays i feel like listing the things i like and don't like for my birthdays in general (partly because mine is coming too..haha!)

i absolutely dislike blackforest cakes.and those fruit cakes with a layer of jelly on top
i don't really like people asking me or telling me what they're getting me because it takes away the element of surprise and i really like surprises!
i don't like carrying around huge inconvenient attention grabbing things (even if they're cute/nice) because..it just isn't me and i have to take one bus one train and one bus home!!
i insist on having a birthday cake regardless of the size. because how can you celebrate a birthday with no birthday cake!! even when i'm 60 and toothless i still insist on having my cake and eating it
even though i like practicality and am quite materialistic, i still appreciate the warm and fuzzy feeling of getting a personalised something!
i hope it rains on my birthday!storm wind everything grey and wet please come!
oh er, and no soft toys please...

er haha ok la that's all i can think of now. pssst you know my sister has a blackforest cake! EEEEEEEYER.

haha this is sucha...self-centred(?)/self-absorbed(?) post

helloooo
today is the day where my tolerance for pain is once again tested.
ever since i left judo my physical limits have not been truly tried. hence today i would say is a FAIL. tsk i think this is one thing i'm sure that will make beefy grown up boys cry.

anyway i went shopping for my 7 year old sister's birthday present too. didn't know what to get her cos she has everything she can possibly need or want(badly). so i took a looooong time debating between an extremely impractical and not long-term (in my opinion) but really cute unicorn plushie or a pretty little vanity box that says "little princess" on it. apt isn't it? she's the youngest and most spoilt of us four. well the thing is, i took so long, i only left at 6 so by the time i got to punggol it was 640 and i just missed the bus home so i took an alternative bus and spedwalk ALL the way through this park to get home in time to watch the 7oclock show. hahahah my devotion to tv...i cannot explain also.

AND i have to go NOW. because the 10 oclock show is startingBYEEE

:D

got this from jianghe. totally made my day!

breakfast and the catching up today was nice.
actually it wasn't really catching up, more like talking about things people normally don't think about.

i am hungry now! dinner is ready but i have to send the gp slides first.

money isn't everything but most of the time, without money you have ... nothing
which's scarier?

the sky is so beautiful but not enough people stop and stare

members of the public are always sending complaints about student's misbehaviour, but some adults and parents fail to enforce civic mindedness in their children on public transport and it's damn annoying.

during econs break today i sat outside lt 5 with the light breeze from the fan listening to ian's ipod people watching. it was nice :)

wa heng, the moment i got home it started to pour. i'm SO glad for the rain. the heat and humidity these days have been stifling.

today is the day where lorraine and i broke the record for least number of people attending pe from a single class. probably, which other class has only TWO people taking pe?! (not counting those who take pe alone due to timetabling around exotic subjects) terrible, i think. i'm not averse to ponning once in a while, but surely not all the time. what reasons do you have? i am terrified of running and hate the feeling of my lungs about to explode but i still take pe even though we are more likely than not to run laps around the track. afraid of sweat? you can save your glamour for prom..you know i probably qualify for a PMC but i just don't get one.
ugh i am not exactly angry, but could we please not have two miserable souls at PE while the rest sit and watch?!

minus the exploding lungs and embarrassment of being slow and unfit, pe can be quite fun and refreshing sometimes, after endless lessons (or breaks in my case) of physical stagnancy, really!

blah ok nevermind this isn't something i can control anyway.
I AM HOME ALONE! i came back to an empty house AGAIN! i dislike it very much :( but once i get past the i-open-the-door-the-house-is-silent-and-dark part, being home alone can be quite nice at times, the silence and plus now i have the :D sound of rain keeping my company.
RAIN RAIN COME AGAIN, EVERYDAY! anyhow i am home alone because The Rebellious Sister sprained her ankle. i have a feeling she'll come back from the polyclinic with a bazhang looking foot. serves her right for playing catching with long john silver and friends instead of coming home after school to study (ROLLL EYES) but i hope it isn't that bad, cos if not my mom will be even busier than ever.TSK. my sisters are all accident prone. we've got amelia who fell off the chair and got stitches on her head, evangeline with broken tailbone and a cut finger which needed stitches and now the sprained ankle. I AM THE WINNER, i tell you. i have never gotten anything worse than a scraped knee when i was 6. not even during my stint in judo. i probably have this protective layer around me that prevents me from getting anything and everything even bruises. i am invincible. hahah SHULIN i am more invincible than you already!

oh and i am eating this peanut snack which the shop uncle called kachang puteh thing but i thought it was a japanese snack! but it doesn't matter as long as i get to eat it haha

ok byeeee can't wait for tv time!

hello quiz taken from ian who got it from smint who got it from mervyn. haha there, i've credited everyone. go here!

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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ehh actually i wouldn't call myself independent. i just value solitude alot. and actually i don't really like einsteins very much, cos i'm not very smart myself! as long as you can make me laugh i'm happy haha

oh anyway today my dajie my mom and i went for macs breakfast at 9am in the morning! :D it's like rewind all the way back 13 years earlier when i was still the youngest and i can be all silly. i told my mom the G-string joke on the way home and she laughed! :D :D :D